ZIZOU

Sometimes leadership is bestowed upon your already burdened shoulders and the responsibilties just keep on piling up...and your whole body and mind seems so weak to do anything right, you can't think and the whole bubble that once envelopes you so cuddly just bursts in one powerful bomb. The ways of man will not make amendments amongst each other and fear of something is pulling structure to my aid instead of individuality. Why do people not understand that love and life will never save the day?

Maybe passion will help, passion and fear instead of love and the art of living.....if you have love you won't be driven unless you are passionate about that particular person or thing. Ok im crapping here, gosh you are such a loser.....hehehe.....

Well love France, the world cup team. I don't know but somehow i need them to find some leverage in my life, some sort of balance in the last few weeks, and since they haven't dissapointed me i guess all my passion and fear lies with them, somehow my life now is dedicated to them and some little bird told me that all their luck is dedicated to me. So they took my life and luck and i took their fear and passion. Well as long as it goes back the same way it was before, no one's complaining. I know i'm not, well to everyone who told me France sucks, you suck at choosing teams man!! HahHAHHAHAH!! Even if they lose to Italy they made it to the finals and to all those people your teams were all kicked out in the beggining so take this!! HAH! Im so bleeding proud of France it's amazing, i can't believe they made it this far, with all their obstacles and all the bad press about them, well they do have the luck, my luck....and let's hope that their luck will lead their way to the cup....

p.s. ZIZOU even if you are not a practising muslim, i think you should start praying, well you will when you marry me!! HEHEHHE!

Chances

Tommorrow is scaring me as i really don't know what can or will happen.....its like a jump off the empire state building and you need to grab that string tying you to life or a freefall downwards. Somehow i really don't think i'll grab hold of that string....its like a feeling of failure. To know you have failed before you even jumped off that building. Well how am i so sure? I am still afraid to jump....still afraid to take chances, still afraid to be me.

Somedays life shows you the path to who you are and other days that path seems so distant so far off reach, just another life lead by someone else....i wish i was someone who could make people proud, someone to mean something to and someone who is not ashamed of her real self and needs to hide behind this mane of blonde hair.

Im sorry to me. You have treated me unkindly, and im sorry for hurting your feelings.

Misieng Peeps

What's this life anyway?
What's it to you and me?
What's it to anyone?
Who are we supposed to be?
Make me a storybookand write me away from here
I need a difference now

Where we can wear each other for awhile
I'll lend you my tears if I could borrow a smile
I'll get through tomorrow somehow today
Happy After...
Once upon these days

There's four roads to anywhere
Four ways to everything
We were unbreakable we spoke our destiny
Let's take a moment out and go were we never go
Let's make a new world now

Then one day we'll find
when we're looking back at this time
Wondering how we've come so far from this
When we close our eyes

What's this life anyway?
What's it to you and me?
What are we doing here?
Who are we supposed to be?
I'll take a better world
I'll take anything
I'll take our little world now....
Happy After...Once upon these days

Sisterhood of the travelling pants lyrics........