Sleuthing

i love the world and i love the trees and i love binoculars......basically i love the earth and of course my super super sleuthing skills.....gosh girls anyone with a crush come to Noura and she will see the details right where they belong!! ok ok!! rocking hard now!!! i love what i did!! and i love you my Creator!! i love this place!!! omigawd!! anyone who needs to research on their worst enemy go to vigneshwaran.com hehehehehehe!! his dad is a defence lawyer....he'll help you!! ok then people have a great life cause im enjoying mine and......well......i rock!!! hehhehee!! j/k!! i absolutely rock!! hehehehhehe!! now i'm NOT joking!!! hehhehehee!! ok enough hehehheheheehehe to last me a lifetime man!! ok noura signing off!! Noura Talib......aka......the super woman with great instinct power and i decided to open a very big secret today....a VERY BIG SECRET!!! ok wait and see how the person takes it......and this one isn't about me!! hehehehe!!! feeling so good.... i knew i would....i been taking care of myself like i should......ok maybe not entirely truthful there....ok enough said tatata!!!
vicky is going down down down~ my new mantra!!

Loose

You don't own me,
I'm not just one of your many toys.....
Don't tell me what to do
And don't tell me what to say
And when I go out with you,
Don't put me on display,
Don't try to change me in anyway
Don't drag me down cause I'll never stay
I don't tell you what to say
I don't tell you what to do
So just let me be myself,
Thats all I ask of you.
I'm young
And I love to be young
I'm free
And I love to be free
To live my life the way that I want
To say and do whatever I feel........
I'm my own woman
And I love to be free
I'm living my life
And I love to be me
So my past now finally
I open the window and gain dignity.
Throw you out and into the bin
Make you rot, a part of my past
You are a closed chapter, never meant to last......
Because you don't own me....and never will.

Joy+Luck

It was once said...'its not that we had no heart or eyes for pain......we were all afraid, we had our miseries but to despair is to wish back for something already lost or to prolong what was already unbearable'
How much can you wish for a babrbie doll house tht got lost in the cargo when you moved houses from singapore to perth? What was worse to sit and wait for death with proper somber faces or to choose our own happiness? A white feather in the midst of darkness....a vase of purple flowers in a grey room....respect, tenderness and honesty that is all i seek....if he did not give it to me then i will leave never returning until he offers it to me with both arms open.
I guess i was brought up with the fact that my heart rules my brain.....desire nothing,swallow other's misery and eat your own happiness.......believe that his love is worth more than mine and then i am unappreciated....gets frustrated....doesn't help when there are snaky, sly friends about.....bitter about their own dispassionate lives and miserable because of the way they should be feeling.....like dark bitter chocolate.....with white sweet chocolate....
I aspire to be like June......strong when others think they are weak, constant belitlling from society.....but nothing can break her, nothing can harm her...that is because she doe not allow it to....and i won't allow it to. i won't allow anything to harm me....nothing except my family.

~Never expect, only hope~

Almost

Almost made you love me
Almost made you cry
Almost made you happy, baby
Didn't I, didn't I
You almost had me thinkin'
You were turned around
But everybody knows
Almost doesn't count

Almost heard you saying
You were finally free
What was always missing for you, baby
You'd found it in me
But you can't get to heaven
Half off the ground
Everybody knows
Almost doesn't count

I can't keep on lovin' you
One foot outside the door
I hear a funny hesitation
Of a heart that's never really sure
Can't keep on tryin'
If you're looking for more
Than all that I could give you
Than what you came here for

Gonna find me somebody
Not afraid to let go
Want a no-doubt-be-there kind of man
You came real close
But everytime you build me up
You only let me down
But everybody knows
Almost doesn't

I can't keep on lovin', baby
I can't keep on tryin'
Everybody knows
Almost doesn't count

Maybe you'll be sorry
Maybe you'll be cold
Maybe you'll come runnin' back, babe
From the cruel cruel world
Almost convinced me
You're gonna stick around
But everybody knows
Almost doesn't count

So maybe I'll be here
Maybe I'll se ya around
That's the way it goes
Almost doesn't count


Brandy..

Over

Now i don't know who i am
He made it easy, made it free
Made me hurt till i couldn't see
Sometimes it stops sometimes it flows
But baby girl, that is how love goes...
It's a secret that no one tells
One day it's heaven, one day it's hell
And it's no fairy tale, take it from me
That's the way it's supposed to be
You laugh, i cry, no one knows why
But oh the thrill of it all
You're on the ride,you might as well open your eyes
If your love could be caged, honey, I would hold the key
And conceal it underneath the pile of lies you handed me
And you'd hunt and those lies
They'd be all you'd ever find
the tears and the sadness you gave me when you said goodbye
boy walk on by
make believe that you don't see the tears honey
let me grieve in private cuz each time I see you I just break down and cry
just walk on by

Woke up today thinking of you
Another night that I made my way through so many dreams still left in my mind
But they can never come true
I press rewind and remember when,
I close my eyes and I’m with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain....every time I hear your name
There’s just one heart, where there once was two
But that’s the way it’s gotta be,
‘til I get over you...
Walked through extreme park, in the evening air
I heard a voice and I thought you were there
They say that time will dry the tears
Give my tomorrows for one yesterday
Just to know that I could have you here
When will this river of tears stop falling
Where can I run so I won’t feel alone
Can’t walk away when the pain keeps calling
I’ve just gotta take it from here on my own
But it’s so hard to let go......
Cause there's a song that's inside of my soul
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold
And i dream that you sing to me over and over again
So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
And i hear you sing to me the song of the stars
of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again....
So I lay my head back down
Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't give you a reason
I feel so broken up and I give up
I just want to tell you so you know.....
You are my only one
Made my mistakes,i let you down
Might be a mistake
A mistake I’ve made
But what you gave I was happy to be taking
Cause no one’s ever made me feel
The way I feel when I’m in your arms
They say you’re something I should've done without
They don’t know what goes on
There’s no way to explain
All the pleasure is worth all the pain
Loving you isn’t really something I should do
Shouldn’t wanna spend my time with you
That I should try to be strong
But you’re the right kind of wrong
I should've ran but I just couldn't seem to...

I recognize the way you make me feel
It's hard to think that you might not be real
I sense it now, the water's getting deep
I try to wash the pain away from me
Away from me....
but the memories....
You and me...
I really feel I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe...
This could be the end
you're letting go and it's real
Well I don't want to know
don't speak,I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining don't tell me because it hurts
don't speak,I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Our memories...
They are inviting but...
Now as we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands I sit and cry
And i remember that I'd never hear you say
I just wanna be alone with you
Guess you never felt that way....

I just can't take it
Again and again and again and again
We both couldn't right?
because for you.....

This love had taken it’s toll on you
I said goodbye too many times before
and my heart is breaking in front of you
But you have no choice cause you won’t say goodbye anymore

You tried your best to feed my appetite
So hard to keep me satisfied....
I kept playing love like it was just a game
Pretending to feel the same
Then turn around and leave again.....
this is exactly what you thought right?
but i never felt that way....no i was in love

The first flush of love was upon you when our eyes first met
And I knew that to you and into your life I had to get
I felt light-headed at the touch of this stranger's hand
An assault my defences systematically failed to withstand
Because you came at a time
When the pursuit of one true love in which to fall
Was the be all and end all
The state of elation that this unison of hearts achieved
I had seen, I had touched, I had tasted and I truly believed
That the light of my life would tear a hole right through each cloud that scudded by
Just to beam on you and I...

But baby now I'm believing that...

Love is only a feeling....drifting away
When I was in your arms I start believing it's here to stay
But love is only a feeling anyway....
But baby....love is only a feeling...anyway


i used to feel that...there's not much going on today.
I'm really bored, it's getting late.
Sit on the bed alone, staring at the phone.
You weren't what I wanted, what I thought, no.
You wouldn't even open up the door.
You never made me feel like I was special.
You wasn't really what I'm looking for.

I think it's time for me to bail.
This point of view is getting stale...

You were all the things I thought I knew and I thought we could be
It's nice to know you were there,
thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

But now i'm taking back my life...
I'm so moving on,
thanks to you now I get what I want
Since you been gone....

You're entitled to your opinion
If you care don't you dare blur my vision
Let me be all that I can be
Whatever's out there waiting for me
I'm going to face it willingly
Cause I've got a right to be wrong
My mistakes will make me strong
I'm stepping out into the great unknown
I'm feeling wings though I've never flown
Now i'm feeling so wrong.
Did you see me walking by, did it ever make you cry?
You're my favorite mistake
You are beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster....


I should have known that you brought nothing real
I aint got no more tears to cry and i cant take this no more
no i gotta let it go and you know..you....
set me free
and let me out of that misery,you show'd me the way
to get my life again cause you can't keep up
cant you see?
baby thanks for setting me free.....
how many times have i tried to turn our love around
but every time you just let me down
could you cry just a little for me
Could you cry just a little for me?
It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are...

I'm better off that way...
I'm better off alone anyway...


You and me
I can see us dying ..are we?