Vanity Fair

i once thought vanity fair as only a book....stories of the culture of those narrow minded humans...the old school as they call it....but it relates to the world today.....somehow the stark similarities just keep on appearing at the back of my head.

A woman has three children and she smokes( considered BAD) and then her children start rebelling against her and they all start smoking ( all turned bad) how would society view them?
THEY ARE BAD!! nobody wants their child to end up a smoker,drinker and drugger but if it ultimately happens why are they shunned from the 'good' society?

the book is not depicting a culture that was the old school it was depicting humankind and its narrowminded.....shallow...despicable ways that drive attention driven teens into committing the biggest sins of the book....exactly...the book....Vanity Fair.......

Downpour

let the rain fall down and wash away my fears....let it calm away my insecurities.....let the rain wash over me....let the drops on my head bless my soul with its power.....i never thought that the divine would appear in so many ways......i saw the rain pour....i saw the rain fall.....in a blanket of water....have you ever wondered why a raindrop that looks so solid can fall down and turn to water....a liquid? or how after the rain falls there is always a rainbow amongst the hills and a chest or gold at the end of it? or why people get addicted to this harmless computer and ending up being crazy? my head is full of questions buzzing to get answered....why is there unwritten rules all over? why are people so full of themselves until they make me feel like vomitting? why are the royals superior and einstein when the firemen and police are helping the society more? why is there development? okay the list of why's go on forever but there is nobody that can answer my questions...why? the obvious answer would be because GOD said so....and you can't question why.....but still my stubborn nature forces me to question.........why did GOD say so.........i need to pray i need to find my answers and i will.....why?
because that's my journey to take....the journey of life..... face the downpour to get the rainbow....

Bad dreams

life has its boundaries.....step one is to understand that statement and apply it....step two is to forget about applying it and let loose but still understand you have the boundaries......God is always watching......and not only that but also for self preservation and survival in this wide world i have my boundaries. Not so much so as Alcatrez prison but just enough to walk across to the other side and climbing a fence.
funny isn't it?? funny how we believe what the newspapers say but question what God says?
the world is the wrongside up.......walking through the haze walking through bad dreams....the magician's reign is beginning and confusion is reigning.....

The False woods

life is made easier with the strength of a true friend....and made harder with the hypocrisy false friends,miserably realising that painful fact trying to chew and digest the bitter substance was too much to bear.
saying hello and smiling like the bright sun shining up above was proving to be a torment therefore i decided not to smile and give the cold treatment....especially to the man made from tin....sometimes when the pressures of society decreases its needs and the gossip english tea session runs based on meaningless lies...then to a quiet evening....to sweet silence.................
nobody can understand the beauty of reading a book....when a battle has been fought and at the end of the day pampering your soul with stories of old to savour the taste of manna dew........
after the journey in the clouds i did not want to return to earth.....but i did and reality hit me hard with a rock.....i have to make decisions based on my life in the future....and this place this soul searching experience made me realise that i am who i want to be...not the teenage drama queen....not the wild child dreamer....not the hard rocker...just plain ole me only with a bit more confidence and on the way to losing a few hundred pounds.....hehehe....smart people don't always stay smart remember the dumb can outsmart them.....

Cold tears

Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that I was somethin I was gonna do and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do,
Dont try to tell me what to say,
Your better off that way........
I feel foolish...i was alone
a stranger in a class
which i did not have to go to.....sitting away from everyone even when they started to call.....
i was angry, tired and bothered....i don't like the teacher....i don't like the superficial people around me and i don't like to study malaysia as the last period of the day which ends at 4.30...
i was not about to bow down to myself...my arrogance and pride got in the way......but it ended well....went home straight away then found a huge packet of lays to dig into, thanks to my dad.
life rocks because i know that my real friends were not there and i was a beating heart in a room full of plastic ones.....................................sigh....Live life with no regrets...and i don't regret going..