Incomplete

incomplete-the hollowness of the heart, atleast i gained the affections of a love that even time cannot fade....what i need now is a list of accomplishments and i WILL goet that list okay?? i will be the first singaporean to dance under the moonlight at a unknown island i which of course would be owned by me.....i'll have an inn by the sea where all the monkeys and the donkey and the cats can come visit moi! with loads and loads of mnm's on the roofs and mars bars and swiss chocolate lining my fridge which is purely ice i don't believe in electronics.....but i'm using a computer.....im a contradictory FREAK!!! well i HATE HATE HATE smoking...so on my island there will be no one smoking....heheheh!! big dreams huh? well without dreams and a goal where would anyone be in life but a drifter....hmmm....not a bad thing to be i'm guessing. incomplete why issit that's just how i'm feeling today??

Manipulate

never comprehending the mysterious workings of a complicated mind....blind from the glares of popularity and never ending shrieks. fixtures on a bare lightbulb lights my head up....dizziness controlling the anger inside. Spinning with my arm open.....the stiches haven't healed yet....i saw a man with 50 stiches across his chest and i asked him what operation did he do? he said he had a tear on his heart and replaced it with a new one....i got extremely jealous of him for his scars can be seen, unlike mine.
Dolls moving in unison working in the dark abyss of reality tv shows and Raj still hasn't got a girl yet!! :) well guess he's waiting for his first blue pathetic day.
Your curious....you keep on guessing.....yet the emancipation of the facts still i can't understand.
the times when comparisons are meaningless and times when love is even more meaningless.
Patience time will tell.....you will always be my only one....my only one.
Relationships are meant to be broken...what if they are meant to be lost....lost far away drifting through the sands of time....passing faces and trees....i like to count the number of colours each car would have.....each car has a rainbow of colours....why issit some only seem black and yet are full of colours? i found out something today....life is beautiful only if you want it to be. people believe only what they want to believe.....ignorance is bliss

Moon

i learnt something yesterday something that my daddy told me....he watched this show and well this young boy wanted to now about life and asked his kungfu master. teacher what is life??......the teacher replied," life,is like a corridor and the last door is death" then the young boy asked again then what happens after death? the teacher again replies"throw this stone into the murky pond". the boy obeyed and threw the stone into the pond and with a splash it dissapears ,then the teacher said...."now tell me what happened to the stone?", think now what happened to the stone........i know i did......................then the young boy said....the stone is in fresh waters.

the fascination with death has always been a controversial issue....different religions and different races.....their opinions and views coinciding with one another....hmmm....the moon was a full circle and it shone yellow light unto the world....i remembered an experience which was never brought up since i left Australia....

i was at islamic camp in Australia and there was this night where me hanifah,yasmin and sumayyah(i think) were told to navigate our way through the rough Australian Outback....no torches and no lights.....just forests and forests and a compass with no light, except for the moonlight. i remembered walking past a graveyard and the whole graveyard was bathed in moonlight....although most of the girls found it eerie...i know Hanifah was screaming, i thought it was amazingly pretty. A Pretty sight....weird right? but the moon looked its best that night....until i saw the moon last night......i learnt something.....hmmm.....still learning

Ja6na

he's so full of drama tactics...a great friend indeed..helped me countless of times..always at home when i turun sunway..eventhough you made me wait for nearly 2 hrs when u went to Bsar for bfast..whats wrong with our new cafeteria la...not romantic enough with all the new mood setting lights and decor..he wont admit it ..but he really is a Drama king..sneaky and always manipulating ppl or situations in his favour..list goes long..cool guy to go clubbing , golf with..always on the look out for girls eventhough he is going out with someone i think..gonna enrol in flying school soon.that's all.....vignesh kindda sum up in these words exactly what i have been feeling....well....he was out for fun and nothing more than that and i was too stupid to realise that. somedays there are times in between having friends taunt me and listening to Mr Lawrence attack malaysia and hating the world at large......i feel there is this emptiness inside me. this ache that deepens with time, a drift from the people that grow around me. it's weird that life takes people into different doors...some in to Canada, some to New York, some to Langkawi, some to Singapore and some to Perth.....everywhere they disperse like the autumn leaves rustling in the wind. I hope the winds stop blowing and life stays the same.....ja6na is gone...Shab is gone....Saiks is gone...soon i'm going. well somehow i feel that life should be lived with no regrets but i do regret going out with him....i rehelly do....i think he made me feel that i was inferior to everyone around me......but i am not.....maybe i was because i went out with him...but now since its over i know that i am not inferior to anyone....if i was i wouldn't have any friends cause i wouldn't get any respect or care from anyone. But i do.....and i do regret going out with that manipulative bastard....and i wasn't used to get anybody, he really did love me, but i wasn't ready for a relationship that fast and well...i think i idolized him too much that it got into his head.....hmmm.....well live life without regrets....love life with all its tests.....missing you hurting inside....

Great Mockingbird

What have I done?
What if it's too late now?
Did I do all I could, did I?
Did I make it good, did I?
Somehow it doesn't feel right
Is it really all over?
Did I think it through, did I?
What if all I want is you?

[chorus]
And now,
I won't see you again
The moment was there but we lost it
Time changed it all
And we let it
We let it happen
And nowI wonder how it would be
If things stayed the same and we liked it
The end of a search 'cos we found it
How would it be?How would it be?How would it be?How would it be?

What have we done?
What if it's too late now?
Was it always like this, was it?
Was it something we missed, was it?
Somehow it doesn't feel right
Is it really all over?
Was it all it could be, was it?
Did I give you the best of me?

[chorus]x2 till end

leave my mind

Now I really cannot see,
If you were good for me at all
I wanna say, that everything’s fine,
But it’s not… but it’s not
All the times you made me stay,
I see it all so clear today
And I wish I could Turn back time… turn back time
If I had a choice
I’d leave all behind
If I had a choice
I’d make you leave my mind
Leave my mind
The things you had me do
Everytime you knew I would
I wanna say, that I was aware
But I can’t… but I can’t
All you tried to take away
I see it all so clear today
And I feel like a fool
I let myself down… let myself down
And you begged me to trust you
I wish I never did
And you begged me to trust you
I wish I never did
If I had a choice I’d leave all behind
If I had a choice I’d make you leave my mind
Leave my mind

hakuna matata

ok well i promise never to lie anymore so finish all the work beforehand....and also i promise to give a piggyback ride to the sweet tooth fairy. gosh its a long road today and sneak will find out about the hawaiian trip and well.....who the toot cares about sneaks emotions. i sure don't lar....anyways...i love the world i live on and i love GOD.....and i need to ask Him a favour....please i know you are listening.....i need help to enjoy myself tonight and still have time to finish my work....i have a lot of work to do so please help me please help me....please help me......ok? please.......