Breakaway

Trying not to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray,I would pray
I could breakaway
I'll spread my wings and
I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And Breakaway
Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around wild indoors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away......
breakaway.......
the future is the future and the past is the past...what i need for my future my past cannot give....this place will open doors for me and i longingly wait upon the day i will be free.......and
Breakaway.....

Invisible strings

I can't take it anymore,
I can't fake it anymore
Why do people feel i am immature?
Maybe i am, maybe i am young
Maybe i need to learn the ways of the unsure.

When will my laughing cease
And worrying increase?
Sadly the world feels i am not old enough...
Lines wrinkling on their faces while mine is a baby's
Their lips curl up in disdain, hate
They think they have experience, proud to know the world
All i want to do is be me....a girly girl

Why can't no one love me anymore?
I used to be proud and feel i am old
But one painful experience will make u see a deeper story that's being told...

I was a hyped up wannabe
I can't fake it anymore
I want to smile with no tainted record
I can't take it anymore
They laugh up front.....and bite behind
I wish my mouth was pure
Just wish i could be blind.....

Take back the sins...i know i have made

Let me be free
Let me be...........me.

Quest

sometimes the answers are right in front of you....obvious....but then the mist blocks up the answers...and you can't see......but the truth is.... the answers are deep within me.......
I'll keep searching
Deep within my soul
For all the answers
Don't wanna hurt no more
I need peace, got to feel at ease
Need to be.
Free from pain - going insane
My heart aches, yeah
Sometimes vocabulary runs right through my head
The alphabet runs right from A to Z
Conversations, hesitations in my mind
You got my conscience asking questions that I can't find
I'm not crazy,
I'm sure I ain't done nothing wrong
I'm just waiting
'Cause I heard this feeling won't last that long.......
this emotion,attraction, the need to be a we..........it won't last.
time will tell.

My blog

okay life so far....nothing much to talk about....just a reminder to myself never ever think of leaving the vicinity of Sunway with friends it almost always gets me screwed.....just like yesterday......my dream car the yellow jeep decided not to appear... the driver did but what difference does it make? next i find out that i FAILED my Law paper......failed it! ok and lastly....the plans the girls made was almost failing until last minute everything went well......and the advert thing that we all went to....well i did not make it....my body was too fat...two of my friends got in....and i am very proud of them....well there are many more ads later when i grow taller and less fatter.....hmm....when my treadmill comes TOMORROW!!! YIPPEE!!! i am soooooooo excited my very own treadmill!! yippee!! okay ya back to my very depressing day yesterday.....i found out that i can't flirt....weird right? i don't like to flirt.....especially with people i don't know....well if i know them you can talk right but i don't know how to flirt anymore.....i don't think i do it....friends please correct me if i am saying crap.....but i don't flirt with strangers....oh ya on mission impossible.....she caught me spying on her....but smiled....kept on looking at me........then yesterday totally erased me from memory....did not look once.....:( well who cares mission was accomplished! no one will comprehend what i just said...heheheehe!! its my blog.....its gonna stay here together.....never gonna last forever....but i will keep it till i get tired....ITS-MY-BLOG!!

A MidWinter's Dream

i awoke in the midst of noise and havoc.....fully made up in sexy eye makeup and seductive lips..the dressing was decent.....the hair was beAUtiful....feels great! but then i was in chaos and havoc.....and a-LOT of noice.......the songs bring back tides of memories...a chinese song...not one more than three million...or so it seemed....but the chinese song was beautiful...amazingly..beautiful.....the rythm, tone....sweet music....high strung guitars came next and a voice of passion on the backgrond of rock filled the stage...the atmosphere was elctrically charged..as the unknown band screamed out the song 'the reason' one of my favourites..to describe what a stupid inane person i am to let loose one of the most eligible bachelors in the world...but i did....and i feel that i needed that......thank you my Creator.
then the night drove on performance after performance...tiring my eyes and boring my soul.....how could my eyes be kept awake.....the object of my obsession was not present....next i was in the college canteen...drinking down chocolate milkshake and listening to the chatter around me.....the people i belonged with...my friends.....feels good to feel solid ground instead of falling down always....feels good to have dreamt that dream.....in pakistan it is winter(almost)...i dreamt a midwinter's night dream....in the sacred month of Ramadhan.

Rosy Corner

when i saw the break of day
wish that i could fly away....
instead of kneeling in the sand.....
catching teardrops in my hand.
my heart is drenched in wine....but you will be on my mind...
forever....
and i spot at the side my rosy corner...
a feeling so strong it cannot be incarcerated.....a jubilating relief sets in
pure freedom...a dove takes flight....
but still those bars surround me...my heart is amongst a fight
which side to choose?
which to see right?
how may i follow my heart and still manage to be me?
when i saw the break of day...
wish that i could eat again
the lord is watching closely....
but im still kneeling....and still catching my teardrops....
but there are roses blooming around me.....rose in bloom....my rosy corner...

The Wizard of Oz

Love can make bonds or break hearts
fly up in the sky or land with a thud
I don't believe in falling in love
Never found my romeo.....my shakespeare
My life is full of doubts, insecurities....
People smile in front and bite me....behind
How can i seek for someone like me?
I don't think i will find
Believe in GOD and don't go looking for Prince Charming
I thought i did, I thought i found him
but he does not feel the same way
He does not even look or glance at me today
My life is torture...my heart doth break
For love is lost, one i tried to seek
I am not strong, I know i am weak
Feeling all strong, but at the end i break
Spreading my remains, spewing blood
my heart is full of pain, my heart is bleeding
Come help me Tinman...help Dorothy
For now i don't believe in love unless you come back to me
I never found my romeo.....my shakespeare
Now your gone...when will you be here?

Truthful Cartoons

Sometimes, I get that overwhelming feeling,
So sad the plastic Faces around me...
If i try to make a difference would it help anyway?
Then i stop and to myself i say
So you wanna change the world,
What are you waiting for,
Say your gonna start right now,
What are you waiting for,
It only takes one voice,
So come on now and shout it out,
What are you waiting for
Sometimes, I feel a little helpless,
Seems well... I can't do a thing,
But anything is possible,Just you want and see,
Good things happen...If you Just believe
Someday, somehow, I'm gonna take that step,
Cause time is tickin away,
Right here,Right now,
I am not ready yet...
To face tomorrow today....
what am i waiting for.....

P.s. The truth cannot be forced... it is not your cartoon to draw and draw it according to your rules
but remember that cartoons are drawn by HIS hand and you can continue to pray....until the day....the truth appears...in a form of one of HIS cartoons...