Jared leto

How far did he want to go?
Hiding in between potholes and drainpipes
The smell of the morning dew still fresh in the air
Newly mowed grass and stale lemonade
There he goes creeping past the neatly trimmed bushes
The cardboard houses with the white picket fences
A german shepherd suddenly yowls painfully
Its owner is dead. Simple. But where is he going to?

Running through the green school field the marching band is getting assembled
O there it goes, the mother's tears as the trumpeteer blows
Sadly the song continues playing
The drum rolls, bloody threats and hidden agendas
There the shadow runs, into a tower of sticks
he lies blinded in the destruction that he causes

The watery green pools above him do not drip...
O wait, there, a teardrop falls
drip, drip, drip.....
slowly.....the facets loosens its deathly grip
and as soon as the first drip came.....
he stays sprawled eagle
Face up towards the shining sun,
Shivering in the heat, knowing that soon the bonds will break

The green pools will part and flush his pain away
he will drown in the liquid that spills itself freely
the first wave comes, out it pours from all corners
squeezing his heart and finally with one last breath he smiles,
for he knew as he floats on the waves
that he finally found hope....

Then footsteps came through the side door
he got up and hurriedly wiped the tears away
screams pierce the air and sadness engulfs the raven's heart

~All things are beautiful when seen in darkness~

Mall Viewing

Sometimes you look at certain people in certain ways
Sometimes the ways that you look at them is the exact same way they look at themselves
Sometimes the way you look at them is the total opposite of how they look at themselves.But that's not for you to judge, its not for anyone to judge.But we still do.

That's why i love malls so much....you can look and view people from different cultures and characters. They all move in different directions. but another reason why i love malls so much is that you somehow feel a sense of belonging to it, like you can still be considered a part of society cause you are shopping with society.
You look to the left, there's the mother of two whose husband is cheating on her with her neighbour and the right there is the cousins who shop at mango and topshop and think anyone who shops at any other store are losers. In front the indonesian rich tourists laden filled with bags from guess, u2 and esprit....oh ya and braun buffel and vincci. How could i have forgotten them? then the whole teenage group of chingko kids, the girls in micro minis looking like Cinta from the movie ada apa dengan cinta (indonesian movie) and the guys in baggy t-shirts and almost all wearing specs and spiked up hairdos. (basically the kind you'll find in cyber cafes). And when you turn back there will always have to be the bunch of indian macha's who gape at my huge ass as if there's nothing huger than it! Well, there are all kinds of people in this world and the best part is without them all the stories that we view or read about wouldn't even be interesting.....i mean if everyone was wearing a plain white shirt and talking in monotonous english how could life have its flavour?? It loses all its tastebuds from being dull and tasteless.

Well ya, society will continue its judging and its analysing. But the sad thing is, they are never correct in their experimental observations. why? because people are unpredictable and HE always pulls different strings to keep the excitement up! Gish this needs alot of further explaining but i have not the time to waste right now.....later maybe....

Off

Can you believe my mum?? She wants me to marry someone whose Father's name is OFF?? I mean gimme a break and what about the mother?? Is her name On??
And the son name will probably be switch....lolz....you know so when i call my hubby it'll be switch where's off?? Or switch where's on?? Gosh this is soooo lame....but well i really don't feel like marrying....aiyoo...why can't life be easy?
Its simple Colin Farell will fall in madly in love with me when he sets eyes on me and decides i'm his 'the one' when he reads my column in the New York Times and everyone will be happy cause i'm happy and my mom will be thrilled to have an irish son-in-law and then we'll have a huge wedding with a horse carriage by the beach and i HAVE to wear a diamond filled tiara!! And then we'll live happily in the canary islands (of course we'll buy our own island!) and we'll make 6 georgeous babies and live happily ever after in our palace with 50 maids (oops i forgot the one before the 50 so that's 150 maids) and our own private shopping mall (where somerset bay and Borders will be the two largest stores)and we don't have to pay. there will also be julio Iglesias, tom jones and lene marlin singing whenever i want them to and oh very important.... a 7metres by 10metres chocolate fountain!! And ferrero rocher trees......oh ya and there must be these tabasco filled wells every 7 metres apart which has never ending tabasco sauce, with endless pizza and lasagna and horfun and tomyam kitchens everywhere. Oh and the best part in this world a woman can have two husbands so then my second hubby would be orlando bloom but only he has this really deep voice like vin diesel...hmmm....
Ok well....good dreams....now i have to content myself with a manicure with flowery prints and salad platters. Oh wait and loads of course work and revision cause exams are coming up.....ok yup thats about it....well son of 'off' i hope you're a good guy....we'll see.....

Momentary Glances

Momentary glances came through
foolish desires passing my bloody heart
pristine beaches line my imagination
supper for two unknown believers
pain cutting deeper into the abyss of hell
plunging myself head first into the searing flame
quietly the foootsteps of the doves patter on the ground
wings intertwine flying high cruelty of hypocrisy settles in my blood
Can a momentary glance do that?
ones selfish desires and pinpricks of affections
live in my veins pulsating full of imagination
looking this way and then turn a full circle
red blood stained my hands
anger supresses the reign of man
momentary glances at the train station....

Noura Talib...

Learnz

Well tonight was one interesting night. First things first, I'm pmsing and secondly i don't feel like shite for doing something 'bad' in societies standards. Well in fact, well look at this in a new way, i mean all i was trying to do was get my point across, i might have done it in a mean and evil and (nihaad's fave words) AGRESSIVE! well ya i do get passionate about these kindda things. how can you blame me? These people have arrogance and ignorance stuck in the fluff of their brains. And this mingled with the lack of understanding why society is sooooo important. i mean people can see for themselves if the girl is good or not. You help people in their homes and you don't seem rude then how can you even listen to yesterday's gossip? If i marry a malaysian royalty i bet you that no one would care about what i did today. You may think that im a loser but i don't really care. I lost on the knowledge of how to use tack when talking to people but hey i'm not really caring about the sadness in my life but really concerntarating on the happiness. And the sadness is that a whole lotta people that i chill with/ hang out with are a bunch of losers and they are ignorant bastards. Well neways i really can't care less.

I mean i got a right to be wrong, my mistakes will make me strong. I gotta mind of my own, im flesh and blood to the bone, see im not made of stone. i love that song cause its so true....i gotta right to be wrong, i mean people learn everyday right?


The weird thing is how dejavu this is with the whole taj and resham issue....you know you're wrong but at the end of the day you just learn more about society and how to deal with them. Its like the abc of growing up. You gotta past through all 26 alphabets. I've watched it all slowly and i realised something that everyone's life is so simple but the most simplistic life i have so far seen is the one in Surabaya. I mean all they do is laugh,talk and laugh some more. But my life isn't all that lacking in dramatics, i wish it was abs.


Well, the fortune teller told me that i will get published in the New York Times and have lots of babies. Oh wait, that was me reading my own palm.


Well ya, i know that my mom is worried about her rep for owning a very rude child. Well i know i am rude, if i wasn't i would be Liza.

I am the rudest child out of all their children.
I give my parents the most problems.
I am THE BLACK SHEEP!!


I like to think that i'm just suffering from some deficiency in manners. (think i spelt that wrongly) aka i am a spoilt child and really i was talking about it to one of my friends the other day and we were wondering what makes a spoilt child. Well i also like to think that i am just young and passionate about my beliefs, you know i realised something i always like people to believe what i believe in as well, i want them to be convinced. But half the time i always find out that they can't be swayed. and they will fight back. Well you know what? ? You learn something new everyday, like i just found out about how to delete viruses of your pen drive by just formatting it. Well you're talking to a new computer user lar....i'm still traditional and old-fashioned. Ahem ahem.....

Cards

Why issit that sometimes the flurry of everyday activities seem to hurry on somedays and slow down on others? It seems that whenever i get more religious, more exciting things seem to happen to me. Maybe for the worst or for the best but always for some reason....all i have to do is pray for the best no matter what. Well somedays life just seems as if nothing is going right and other days life seems to move forward....and the train does'nt slow down its engines to let you down, but you're really tired and you need a break....i want that burnout lifestyle...the mundane and ordinary is getting very boring...i need excitement...i need drama....well i am A DRAMA QUEEN!! hehe!! Anyways life still goes on mundane or passionately exhilirating but the best part is that even with all the toys of yesteryear....i still haven't entertained myself well enough.

Well there are a few things you'd like to know about arabs....they are very and i mean VERY hospitable...hahaha...no i don't mean their always in the hospital...no i mean the doors to their homes sentiasa terbuka, directly translated to their doors are always opened. And their smiles...oh their smiles. Old women especially love company...and they always smile when company's around....well thats how it is then. the super hospitable are all almost gone and what is left are a westernised,closed up part of humans which you never thought could be possible....well this is true for the Arabs of S'pore....mostly they are all concerntrated on brands and the fact that they only need to mix with crowds that have atleast a title. Haven't they heard of a saying that says Arrogance can destroy you?? Well My records have played and my uncles have drawn their cards...let me draw mine....3 Aces. I win.

There's gotta be more to life

Well abs....anyways, tonight was AMAZING!! Well actually yesterday night....we sat on the rooftop on my telok kurau house and they shisha'd and i ate crisps and choccies!! And we all listened to sweet music and the breeze was there and well....it was all good. A great night, the moon was full, the breeze was coming....and the company was great. Well ya just to remind you that breakfast is attached and he's not interested in me....how upsetting...He's interested in Nusrat cause on my main profile picture its both of us and when he realized that the girl he was attracted to was not me well he viewed her profile then....ok....well....then...I cried....but then....i got bored....then i thought...i haven't been able to tell anyone this...so its kept inside and then suddenly i realized something. Something awoken inside me.....the chess of love will move its next piece whenever it wants to but for now....i'm single and life goes on. =) And i love my life...why is it that when people are placed high above the ground they tend to think more clearer?

Sweet Lands

Why is it that the narcissitic part of people just seem to appear due to their incompetence in acknowledging the fact that everyone is equal and that they are not superior to anyone just by looking ok.....Gosh its like the world has turned inside out with the complete lack of immoral justice that we as citizens of this place called earth, we turn it to become some obstacle instead of something that brings meaning and joy to our otherwise pathetic lives. Well, turns out that grey cap had gone to gundu land and all that's left is Nerd and the lame excuses of yesterday....how is it that someone who strives to always and i mean always feel positive about life, how is it that one single mistake or a seed of self-doubt would change everything in a blink of an eye. So what is the reasoning behind all the foray and spy movies of today? Why do people need to be entertained by the simplistic reasons of 'Dude where's my car?' and the stupid inane mumblings that restrain all walks and curtains of life from fulfilling their highest ambitions.....waking up from catatonia land cause the black flags have been shown and soon the world would end....

The question is should I display my love on the walls of Orchard road or hide it inside the little hut in the green jungles in Kenya? What is the answer? I never seem to understand it, the power of love....it actually motivates and really love is great.....all the different types. Love, love.

Forget

There are somedays when you really want to forget someone and it really is hard to do. Its like you know something and that you have finally met someone that you'd like to be with for the rest of your life and there is that long awaited walk down the aisle to that same face. The question needs to be answered and yet you don't know if the right answer will ultimately be the right one because of all the confusion that comes along with the life we lead today.....
There has got to be a lot less inconvieniences to day and yet more complications arise...such as we can pee inside the house and with one flush the poo or pee goes of somewhere else and yet all these new diseases come propping up in your life, like, cancer.....
You think that one decision will be correct, its definite, the answer is the correct one but, how do you know that in the face of this one man,or person(i'm not lesbian, this post not made for me but for a friend), do you want your kids to resemble this person... I truly think that this whole situation is a mess and that there is no way out of it unless, well, unless they meet up. Then the lustre of the performance would dissapear.

So why can't we forget people easily? Because really....deep inside, you really don't want to forget them.

ZIZOU

Sometimes leadership is bestowed upon your already burdened shoulders and the responsibilties just keep on piling up...and your whole body and mind seems so weak to do anything right, you can't think and the whole bubble that once envelopes you so cuddly just bursts in one powerful bomb. The ways of man will not make amendments amongst each other and fear of something is pulling structure to my aid instead of individuality. Why do people not understand that love and life will never save the day?

Maybe passion will help, passion and fear instead of love and the art of living.....if you have love you won't be driven unless you are passionate about that particular person or thing. Ok im crapping here, gosh you are such a loser.....hehehe.....

Well love France, the world cup team. I don't know but somehow i need them to find some leverage in my life, some sort of balance in the last few weeks, and since they haven't dissapointed me i guess all my passion and fear lies with them, somehow my life now is dedicated to them and some little bird told me that all their luck is dedicated to me. So they took my life and luck and i took their fear and passion. Well as long as it goes back the same way it was before, no one's complaining. I know i'm not, well to everyone who told me France sucks, you suck at choosing teams man!! HahHAHHAHAH!! Even if they lose to Italy they made it to the finals and to all those people your teams were all kicked out in the beggining so take this!! HAH! Im so bleeding proud of France it's amazing, i can't believe they made it this far, with all their obstacles and all the bad press about them, well they do have the luck, my luck....and let's hope that their luck will lead their way to the cup....

p.s. ZIZOU even if you are not a practising muslim, i think you should start praying, well you will when you marry me!! HEHEHHE!

Chances

Tommorrow is scaring me as i really don't know what can or will happen.....its like a jump off the empire state building and you need to grab that string tying you to life or a freefall downwards. Somehow i really don't think i'll grab hold of that string....its like a feeling of failure. To know you have failed before you even jumped off that building. Well how am i so sure? I am still afraid to jump....still afraid to take chances, still afraid to be me.

Somedays life shows you the path to who you are and other days that path seems so distant so far off reach, just another life lead by someone else....i wish i was someone who could make people proud, someone to mean something to and someone who is not ashamed of her real self and needs to hide behind this mane of blonde hair.

Im sorry to me. You have treated me unkindly, and im sorry for hurting your feelings.

Misieng Peeps

What's this life anyway?
What's it to you and me?
What's it to anyone?
Who are we supposed to be?
Make me a storybookand write me away from here
I need a difference now

Where we can wear each other for awhile
I'll lend you my tears if I could borrow a smile
I'll get through tomorrow somehow today
Happy After...
Once upon these days

There's four roads to anywhere
Four ways to everything
We were unbreakable we spoke our destiny
Let's take a moment out and go were we never go
Let's make a new world now

Then one day we'll find
when we're looking back at this time
Wondering how we've come so far from this
When we close our eyes

What's this life anyway?
What's it to you and me?
What are we doing here?
Who are we supposed to be?
I'll take a better world
I'll take anything
I'll take our little world now....
Happy After...Once upon these days

Sisterhood of the travelling pants lyrics........

Malls

Malls...shopping malls...wondering through one made me realise how much a shopping mall reflect society. It is a person watching society change and adapting with us and our new and innovative technologies and fads. The mall would always stand there watching and impersonating society, this in turns influences the people who have yet grasps the latest updates. We learn from the malls and malls learn from us. So who teaches who?

Berhenti

I missed the oppurtunity to get you babe to stay with me.
Never thought i'd regret the excuses that I've made
Like a song, it will fade
So I put my feeling out to dry
Love, one day you again i'll have to try
Falling out, making love it's seems such a silly game
Why do I never gain?
If there is music in the night and it's really really right....It's the only thing I need.
It intoxicates your mind all your troubles left behind, so come on and take my lead
It's not just me who feels it
Music plays a mind trick
Watch me forget... about missing you....WoW!

Going

Sometimes people come into a pathway in their life where they either go on or they stay just as they are, and sometimes people can go on while staying the same but others they go on with a whole lot of changes....the remainder of these people well, they never change and always stay as they are, but in reality who is really the best person? Who is making an impact upon life on this world? Which one is really the worst off? Well its a path you forge out yourself, whichever path ridden on is the path you chose so, if thats the way you want it to be then....you have accomplished all your goals. And if you are not on the path that you want to be on and if you look deep into yourself and find out that you don't really love yourself then Noura you will be a failure. A chaotic depressive mess and all around you will be darkness.......light has faded and the colourful windows have all been passed before.....thus finding the right conclusion to the statements made...well....they will find your self.

Hang Tuah? Tak Tuah lah!

**STEPHEN-RAHMAN HUGHES

Why can't there be more presence on stage? *ARGH!* Beautiful lights, Amazing scores and wonderful seats... the grand circle!! What more can anyone want? Oh ya...a better Hang Tuah...sorry dude you kindda didn't pass off well enough, and the slight lisping doesn't help either. Well atleast he can carry a tune, a very long streched spine tingling note....lasting for about....4 Hours? hehe! But why can't there be more presence on the stage? Wish M.Nasir could come and be Hang Tuah...hmm...well one less yummy chocolate doughnut face to cuci mata with. But atleast the play will be salvaged!! Well let's see....let's leave M.Nasir to be Hang Tuah and Stephen-Rahman can be Hunk Muda! Hehe...LAME!!! Well...giggling, snorting and throughly enjoying it....life can be such a nag sometimes but with Puteri Gunung Ledang it helps being pulled into dreams. If only the Puteri was me....

Di atas gunung yang tidak berapi
Suatu hari ada yang menanti
Kedatangan kamu kedalam negeri
Untuk membawa kamu kepada Puteri.
Dari Harrods ke KLCC
Dari the Thames sampai Klang Valley
Kamu akan sampai satu hari
Dan di atas gunung yang tidak berapi
Perjumpaan kamu dengan puteri ini.

-Noura Talib-

Hehehe....doing assignment and feeling very lame....well let's resume the inane gigling and the foolish thoughts for without dreams life would never be meaningful at all!

Puteri's At Gunung Ledang

At the Puteri Gunung Ledang show....Sarah, Natasha, Nadrah, Nusrat and Noura (aka Me)....looking FAT but its all cool.....the screen at back says Puteri Gunung Ledang....very faintly can see....

Think

Sometimes there is a line drawn between what is right and what is wrong....and sometimes its blurred. I'm standing in between wondering where to jump to...where should my ending abode be? The world of the leprechauns, magical creatures and fantastic looking men....or the world of life upon another world? Thoughts of life upon another world at least. Well thoughts won't get no one anywhere...so just end this now. Goodnight.

Clinicx

Got to understand that a days work by someone
Shouldn't be paid unto another person....
Got to understand that some friends
will only remain as friends, nothing more,nothing less....
Got to comprehend that loneliness...
only happens to those that want to be alone....
Got to know that tommorrow....
Will bring as much happiness as sorrow.

** won't this ever end? This painstakingly handmade life path....and when it does will i ever be ready to greet it with open arms?**

*vignesh is going down down down*

=)

Sweet smells, sandy pits, sunset lights, Amroo's smiles.....telling tales and fidgety fools, Askanazi marriages and Stupid peeps. Spies all around....reading even this.....how can time not lose itself when the sand is passing through? Baby crying....obsessive love, cartoons commotion.....and beauty up above.

Cookies and Muffins

Chocolate cookies....and blueberry mufins....symbols of two different portions of my life...why does life hand people another chance? To make sure that they get it wrong the second time? Or to allow them another chance to get it right?
learn from your mistakes, don't fall down again....always believe that God has a plan for everyone....even the Denmark asshole. God has a plan....it may not come now....but it will show soon....have faith and love will lead you back home.