dripping water

the tap dripping slowly...drip by drip...leaving it like that for a few days,weeks, months...the tap could hydrate 100 of the babies who are victims of the tsunami.
why are some people filthy rich that they can afford to cloth themselves in silk garment worth a hundred pounds but still manage to turn a blind eye to the victims of the tsunami....not all...but most.
my recent trip to Surabaya for a cousins wedding really opened my eyes to the suffering of the poor...but sadly all i can do now is donate and study.....donate and study....feeling all helpless...maybe my money wouldn't reach the homeless....who knows?
why are white people treated like lords from Kingdom Kong and pariahs treated like dirt? why do people with money always get better treatment than those without? isn't money just another piece of paper printed with this ink with the smell that i love.(love the smell of money!)
why is there such a thing as royalty? and how can 56,565,700 people can be so dumb as to appoint George Bush as their leader....AGAIN? There are billions of questions to ask....i think i finallly understand it all.....i think i can finally comprehend dripping water.

Noura's Wonderful Theory:
Lives are ruled by the unwritten laws created from society and the self-imposed rulebook called conscience. I awaken from my sweet comfortable slumber, awake enough to swim against the currents of life that many people float along ignorantly....
There i see my grandmother, my mother, sisters, aunties.....why can't i follow their lead? why am i forcing my tired body to swim in the opposite direction? because i know something and i remind myself about it everyday...i have learnt to love life everyday due to this knowledge.
Some people don't care about it, most fear it, a minority want to experience it. But whatever the name...the Grim Reaper, Heaven or Hell...whatever it's called whatever the reactions are when mentioned...many cry....many laugh...too old to be afraid.
i call it death and i finally comprehend dripping water.

for whatever the cause, intentions and beliefs that are experienced through lifes and the many stupid questions i will continue to ask due to my poor inability to research for myself...and install into my little cute brain. whatever happens, pain, joy, laughter,tears,richer,poorer, handsome,ugly,bright,dark........whatever happens...'that's life' and society will never change no matter how many feminists there are in the world, no matter how many vegetarians in the world, no matter how many Mother Theresa's there are....of course it will make a little difference but think about it....which date are you gonna remember....9/11 or 12/26? many people forgot the day of the tsunami attacks and when USA occupy the iraqi territory. i dunno...do you? i ask alot of ignorant teenagers do you remember when iraq was bombed....guess what they replied....." i dunno".....then i ask when was the day the twin towers got hit and...in a heartbeat..."9/11 lah!"
i still think society wouldn't change and thats my theory....have faith...practice faith and believe in yourself....remember that one day we will all turn to dust....step boldly up to this judgemental, hypocritical,inane world we call home. didn't the tsunami create any impact?

sadly i decide that dripping water will continue dripping and im tired of thinking and swimming by myself....i float away...in the current i will stay...remembering that one day..i will die and go wherever He wants me too.