Falling Slowly

The day you called my cousin and came over
A smile, a hello then a phone number
A girl can only wait for two days mister
Any longer and its c'ya later.
Your bangle fits the circle of my palms
Like Medusa's snakes on her head, the black rope on my arm
The concerto plays Elvis's can't help falling on repeat
Suddenly the heart doth not walk but crawls then leaps
I don't know you but I want you all the more for that
The bus skips four stops and drives straight to your station
Ambidextrous hands play puppetry with one and pushes away the mimickry with the other
The aorta thumps continually evolving with external derivatives
And suddenly the world plugs up all the hustle and bother
There is silence and the autumn leaves change to winter...
And lips that sealed hidden whispers and secrets spill out their desires
For there is nothing that can fan down this inner lightning fire
The thunder roars for Nefertiti's beauty cannot surpass its warning
One tiptoe and peek out the front door and the heart began opening
But what if the risk was seen and unheeded, and then celebrated
What is time on earth if not to be endured and berated?
Admonishing the dire signs that could destroy the soul and break the walls
Jumping into the fray relishing in the glory of bloody wars and catcalls
Exposing the soul to the greatest magic the world possesses in its grasp
Reviewing the previous list with a renewed vigour demolishing constraints
Leap from the castle walls and burn it down into the dust
Lancelot and Guinevere ran from the societal norms and restraints
Love has arrived and with it came friendship and fun flirtatious jokes
This time round the winner will be me, one punch, two punches, KO
The blessing from the man above and from the old ancient folks
Makes this love or whatever its called a feeling of jubilation
celebration
perspiration
anticipation
hallucination
and finally completion.
For the pearl of Baloch has opened my heart again,
and though this may or may'nt amount to anything.
The walls are broken and the dragon slain.
And as Bok ti would say, 'Jangan main sendiri lagi Ling!'


This song is exactly how I feel right now.....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y_LALGvMlfU&feature=related

Past Mistakes

I can't fall in love. I can't fall in like. I can't fall. There's always something in my way. And I just realise that something is me. I always stop and look down, get scared and turn around. I can't burden someone else with my baggage, can't forget the past mistakes I made. I don't regret but I don't forget. And I don't think I will ever find someone that can push me of the ledge and watch me spiral downwards, I know that I will catch myself. I can't forget my past.....I can't fall in love.

This song has been on repeat for hours.....and I can't sleep.......
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b0JD8LHPlTI

p.s. Emy got married today, I am truly happy for her. I don't even know why I'm putting this in. I guess its to remember the date. Lolz.