Ja6na

he's so full of drama tactics...a great friend indeed..helped me countless of times..always at home when i turun sunway..eventhough you made me wait for nearly 2 hrs when u went to Bsar for bfast..whats wrong with our new cafeteria la...not romantic enough with all the new mood setting lights and decor..he wont admit it ..but he really is a Drama king..sneaky and always manipulating ppl or situations in his favour..list goes long..cool guy to go clubbing , golf with..always on the look out for girls eventhough he is going out with someone i think..gonna enrol in flying school soon.that's all.....vignesh kindda sum up in these words exactly what i have been feeling....well....he was out for fun and nothing more than that and i was too stupid to realise that. somedays there are times in between having friends taunt me and listening to Mr Lawrence attack malaysia and hating the world at large......i feel there is this emptiness inside me. this ache that deepens with time, a drift from the people that grow around me. it's weird that life takes people into different doors...some in to Canada, some to New York, some to Langkawi, some to Singapore and some to Perth.....everywhere they disperse like the autumn leaves rustling in the wind. I hope the winds stop blowing and life stays the same.....ja6na is gone...Shab is gone....Saiks is gone...soon i'm going. well somehow i feel that life should be lived with no regrets but i do regret going out with him....i rehelly do....i think he made me feel that i was inferior to everyone around me......but i am not.....maybe i was because i went out with him...but now since its over i know that i am not inferior to anyone....if i was i wouldn't have any friends cause i wouldn't get any respect or care from anyone. But i do.....and i do regret going out with that manipulative bastard....and i wasn't used to get anybody, he really did love me, but i wasn't ready for a relationship that fast and well...i think i idolized him too much that it got into his head.....hmmm.....well live life without regrets....love life with all its tests.....missing you hurting inside....